No, no, not the Britney spears "did it again," but rather the Mary Kay version. What am I talking about? Well, per request of a very sweet friend of mine, I attended a Mary Kay party. I will pause now so that those who know me, may laugh uncontrollably.
It's not exactly "my scene," but I am a girl, I do where make-up and use skin stuff, and thought I would just go for it. I should not be allowed at these things because my critically reflective eye is on full alert at these things! I just sit there decontextualized and decoding all the jargon, pamphlets, language, behavior, etc. and have a hard time moving past the fact that we are sitting there feeding into what society tells us a woman should be, do, look like, and so on.
On the other hand, I do use some of these types of things (not Mary Kay brand) in an effort to take care of myself. It's quite perplexing for a person like me--sitting on my high horse of "this is all ridiculously silly" while also thinking "oh, I do need to work on the wrinkles around my eyes."
Ugh. It makes me sick that I am even posting about it, but there it is. I have gone to these before, experiencing the same internal tug-of-war. And yes, I did it again! Why do I do this to myself?
